I know you didn't mean to make me cry...

When someone hurts you its hard to let go of the pain.....I know and see you struggle with anger and pain
What we fail to see is that the pain is often our own dreams crashing to the ground and they are the very things that hurt us.

I wish you happiness and I love you. My love for you is childlike, innocent and pure and came out of the blue and hung just on a feeling but it was the strongest feeling I ever felt. I surrender my dreams because they may hurt you and I would rather bear the hurt than pull at you at the very time you are falling in love. I feel tears and sorrow deeply inside and nobody will see it or can calm it. Its part of me now this familiar sadness and hollow and hopelessness. The very sadness I had been running from.

Nobody ever fought for me and I don't expect anyone ever will. But, knowing you love someone and that you don't feel the same for me....I know how the story ends. I've known for some time but I wanted to hang on a little longer. I'm sorry only that I met you as a married man and not when I was free. The fault is all mine and my sadness too. But in my dreams, which were unrestrained, I had a happy life with you and you were good to me...and that is my sadness; knowing.

I want to run and scream and cry but everything feels bound up tightly inside; only veins and muscles twitch and salty sleepless tears form and slowly fall. Today I have no dreams, no true home ...only tears and my only fear is that they will remain forever. Whatever God has now chosen for me, I am just now a feather in the wind and feel unworthy of love. The trailing whisps of dreams are not enough to bear the weight of my sorrow.

When my tears dry, I hope you know I still care and I will not abandon you if you need a friend or a shoulder to lean on. You are still precious and you are in my heart.

Because.... I know you didn't mean to make me cry.

Every Morning i Think ....

I gazed at the sky thinking about what we had and what could have been. To believe we were going to last forever was impossible to think, but I did. Now I am left with a broken heart. Even though what we had wasn't real, the pain and heartbreak you put me through was completely real. But even after what you did to me, every morning when I awake I ask myself, will my heart burn with desire for your love? Will I die if I don't feel your touch? Will my lips burn if I don't feel your lips touch mine? Because my heart's one desire was and still is your love.

Waiting...

You've let me down, you've let me believe, you've walked away and you let me grieve.
You told me your life, and i told you mine, we told each other everything would be fine.
Secret loving was the game that we played, leaving me with a heart now frayed.
You had your chance, you had to decide, once again you chose her, it killed me inside.
I am not brave enough to tell you, im not strong enough to walk away, you will know in time, hopefully one day.
One day your gonna realize what you really missed, the way you took my heart and crushed it in your fist.
I say that i wont be there again for you to just break me, but i know that i will, how long will it take me?
Its sad that i am so vulnerable to you, after all you put me through.
But i cant walk away, your all that i want, so i will wait until i have our love to flaunt.
There comes a point where i just dont care how long it takes, ive made bad choices, ive made mistakes.
So i guess you'll be another one to add to the list, but atleast this time, i'll take my heart from your fist.
I know one day, we'll come through, so when you finally wake up, i'll be here, waiting..for you...!

Forever Love =)

The first time I laid my eyes on you I knew, that we'd spend this life side by side I still feel the same though you are so far away I swear that you'll always be mine, forever love I promise you someday we'll be together forever love, I wont give up no matter what I'll be waiting for you forever love.Minutes and hours and years may go by but my heart knows nothing of time so dont cry just keep me right there in your dreams and hold onto these words of mine.
Forever love I promise you someday we'll be together forever love I wont give up no matter what I'll be waiting for you forever love is the road to our destiny nothing can change what is meant to be forever love no I wont give up no matter what I'll be waiting for you forever.

Hurt Me Again

All i seem to think about is you, I sit here and try not to cry. Everyone is asking me why, why am I so dam depressed. I say it's nothing, but they know it's something. You are the reason!!! I love you so much, but it hurts so bad, to know that I can't have your tender touch.

My days n nights are so lonely, I think I might be going crazy. Your love is the only thing I need in this world, and without you I'm not whole.

I hate seeing you and not being able to be with you, I hate to see you laugh, cuz I know I am hurting so deep inside. Why should you be happy when I can't even laugh without you popping in my mind. My laugh turns to tears......... Why can't I get over you?

I need you in my life, my world seems so blue. Nothing makes me happy anymore. You took your love away, and I fell apart! but it seems like you don't even care! So why sould I?

I wish I could just forget about you, I hurt you so now I guess you have to hurt me.

AnjaaN Chehra...

Koi Anjaan Jab Apna Ban Jata Hai...

Najanay Kyun Wo Bohat Yaad Ata Hai,

Laakh Bhulana Chaho Us Chehray Ko Magar...

Aks Us ka Har Cheez Main Nazer Aata Hai..

illusion

I never knew love was until i met you. I never expected changes in my life. You were different from those guys i used to mingle with. You know how people got to have first love.... It is in you where i felt true love. I felt so much for you. And if ever that i could put back time. I would do so, the time wherein we were still together sharing great moments but unfortunately i cant.

I kept thinking of you..everyday and every moment. I've been in a battle between my mind and my heart..my mind about to give up but here comes my heart saying cheer up. I cant stop loving you. I've been spending time thinking of happy moments we had. And keep pretending the truth that we're far from each other.(totally far from each other)

...somehow this heart of mine would learn to accept reality and be contented...

...contented to be just missing you!

i dont know if i do really need to say goodbye..but as for now i am still confuse and i am drowning of thoughts on how things work and used to be. I dont have any guts to get along with somebody else and pretend to be happy though im not. I thought i already knew you since before. I just waited for the time to say that i still have lots of things to know 'bout you..and here is the time!!!..maybe its too late

I Will Never Let You Go...

Many times I have loved and lost, for so long my heart lay shattered and broken. I have given up on life and pieces of my heart scattered, have left it bleeding, numbing with pain.

Then you came along, patiently you picked them up, unceasingly healing it back with the warmth of your love. Slowly my heart began to feel again, like a flower awakening to the warmth of the sun. Bringing life and it's splendor back in existence into my world.

Yet with all the love you showered, the care you've lavished, reluctance still lurks in my heart and mind. You've given me everything and asked for nothing. Healed my heart, given me hope and selflessly asked that I let you love me in return. That was all you've ever asked from me, yet even that I didn't give.

I cannot blame you, everyone and everything has it's limit... even love... It's true that you never know what you have until you've lost it...

It's been 8 years since I left you and never a day pass that I don't think of you. It maybe late, maybe you've found someone who loves you and you love in return. Maybe you have now the kids you've always wanted and would have given up because for me. Maybe you're now living the life that you've always wanted, a loving wife, bunch of kids, homecooked dinners and picnics on sundays.

Know that I'm happy for you, and that the love and care you've shown and given me was never a waste. It maybe a little late, but winter gave way to spring and I have you to thank for that.

Maybe we weren't meant to be together in this lifetime, maybe you were meant just to heal my heart so that it'll know your love.

In the next lifetime when we meet, my heart will know you and remember your love. And by then my true love, I will never let you go....

Walking Out

Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather,
it has shown me that if I wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.

Pieces of ME

Pieces of my heart hold hurt in their soul and cry out any life left in them in its tears.

Silent and empty moments filled with broken promises ; is where loneliness lives with me.

Numb and cold memories have become the meaning to my love and meaningless to my reality.

A True Love Story =(

Here's a story of a girl who left all alone in her life... I was in 9th grade when a guy started loving him like hell. He was actually crazy for me. Used to gift me flowers, choclates and many more and I never ever accepted his proposal.He even cut his nerves and wrote my name on his wrist which was actually too daring but still I never ever realized his love for me. I always thought it's just an infactuation. But he never stepped back. In the school parties he used to follow me altough his subjects were different but still he used to manage that. The irritating thing he did was he hired a Video maker to shoot only my video in the school party. Which was too much... But when his friends asked him about this he used to say he is crazy for me. Not even him all our tachers as well. And it was still me who was not realizing his love.

Every day he used to follow me from school till my home and this happened for at least 3 years. But one day he didn't come I thought he might be busy with something. And the days passed away I couldn't see him. I thought he is fed up of coming after me. But I started missing him. After 2 months when he didn't come after me I met his friend and asked about him. I came to knew that he is in Hospital, there are only 3 months left for him to live. As he got Brain tumor which was not curable I was stunned. I couldn't stop myself and rushed to the hospital where I saw him lying in the bed and only asking for me. And when he saw me there I think he was the happiest person on this world he said that he really loves me and wants to marry me. I knew the truth but I accepted his proposal we couldn't marry but I gave him my love for next 3 months. I gave him all I have physically as well as mentally.

I recall that day when he was in his last stage. He was terribly weak and there were only three words he was saying that he loves me more than anything and will come back in my life soon. He was just praying for one thing that in every Birth he gets me as his love.

He is no more now I lost him on 15th March 04 but I have his love for me... Our baby (which came when we made love in those 3 months) and I have never married anyone. As I don't want to share our love with anyone. It's been a year passed I am living with my baby and with his love. I know he is there with me and will protect me everytime.

My Dying Hope

You used to be mine, but in my stupidity, we end up there. I regret those times, but I had nothing to do for it. I just hope and wait for you to come back. But yet I saw you with her. Right away I loose it all, I never bother to wait for you, I taught myself to forget you though it kills me so hard. From the time I saw myself contented of not having you in my life, destiny played me so bad. You came in my way again, begging for my help. With tears behind my eyes I accept your hand waiting for me to hold. From the day I started to ease your pain I know how much I would regret after all. But yet I never mind, as long as I could help you in any way.

We spend time together. And I found myself so happy with you. Days had past I realized again how much you mean to me, deeper than before. I also saw you so contented, never having a blot of pain anymore. I just think everything is so fine and forever be fine.

Tomorrow then, I am so happy seeing you. Wearing those smile came from your very heart. Then shocked me for those very long hug, then whisper me these:

“ Thank you for the help, I know you still love me, and I appreciate that very much. I know that when I am happy you’ll be very happy too,. And you know what, she call me last night, she wants me to be with her again, I am so happy that I can’t wait for this morning to see her again. But I’m here asking for your permission if you will allow me to be happy forever”.

Breaking myself into pieces, I answered you “yes” ..you kissed me goodbye and walk away without seeing how much you kill me. Though that would be a forever wound.., I can take it even forever just to make you reach your forever happiness. I’ll just be here with my -Dying Hope-..

Wo Chand

Wo Chand Chup Gaya Muje Raat Sooonp Kar, Ankhon ko Intezaar Ke Lamhaat Soonp Kar

Ek Shahks Tha Jo Muj se Bicher Gaya, Ankhon Ko Meri Mosam-e-Barsaat Soonp Kar

The Ring <3

A girl was sitting on a chair at the gas station she worked at. She looked up and saw her boyfriend walk in. As he was looking at snacks, a man walked in and pointed a gun at her. He had been admiring her ring her boyfriend had given to her as a token of his love. When he asked her to give it to him, she said no. Her boyfriend looked up just in time to see her shot. He ran over to the killer and beat him over the head with a hammer that was for sale. Then he ran and called 911. When the ambulance came, he was sobbing uncontrollably near his girlfriend.

The doctor came over and felt for her pulse. Then he stood up and said she was still alive. Later at the hospital, as he was sitting beside her, he asked"Why didn't you just give him the ring?" and then she softly spoke"Because when you gave it to me, you said it was part of your love for me and I knew if I gave him the ring, I would lose that love." The next day, she was pronounced dead.

Island Of Feelings

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all repaired their boats and left. Love was the only one who stayed.

Love wanted to persevere until the last possible moment. When the island was almost sinking, Love decided to ask for help. Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, "Richness, can you take me with you?" Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you." Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel, "Vanity, please help me!" "I can't help you Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered. Sadness was close by so Love asked for help, "Sadness, let me go with you." "Oh...Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!" Happiness passed by Love too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her!

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come Love, I will take you." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that he even forgot to ask the elder her name. When they arrived on dry land, the elder went her own way. Love, realizing how much he owed the elder, asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who helped me?"

"It was Time," Knowledge answered.

"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"

Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is.