I love you but I hate you

All the things you did, All the things you even said. Made me cry and almost wanna die...But i am not gonna let you do that to me. I tried to hold on tight but you put up those dirty walls. I had to try to fight to try and keep you in my life. I love you but I hate you..All these emotions inside my head. Some days I am fine thinking every things just great...Yet some days I break down and try to win a fight. I am always thinking of you, the memories we had. But the one I wanna forget is when you said goodbye. I want you back in my life..But yet again I want you to just be a friend. I love you but I hate you... All these emotions that you lead. Every night I cant go to sleep... Its hard for me to realize you'll never hold me again. And I always catch my self picking up my phone then putting it back down...Wanting to call you one last time! But I love you but I hate you....

The first time i saw you..

The first time i saw you..i never thought that i would be loving you so dearly I was broken and ironically hating love for the reason that i had been loving many times and end up crying. I was afraid to open my doors again thinking i would end up bleeding like before but then surprisingly you showed me the other way around You showed me the brighter side of loving and you helped me to start loving again and what happiness it will bring me.

And now, I am afraid of losing you.. you who gave me the strength to love again you, who i look forward to every time i close and open my eyes. You who i will give my all
You, who are my life, my love and my knight and shining armor.

Our love is unconditional and undying. I'll die w/ the love we both share and I will die loving you forever

Remember ?

Remember the way wed always look at each other, remember the was I could always catch your eye. Remember the day I let you go but now remember this day. I always come back for more, wanting you is something I do more and more. This has to mean something so don't let it go, I know your now with her but remember those days and you will see. This has to be true, I cant get over the thought of you. So remember what you once said to me, when I left you for some heartbreak. You once said you'd always have my back and I was like your drug cuz you always came back. I feel like it was a lie because now here I lye lonely with these I wonder whys! I cant give this up if it was meant to be, you can no longer see right through me. You say you no longer care well guess what, I can see right through you. I know you still care, i can hear it in your voice. But just remember you and I. You could always make me laugh no matter what you did, and you'd always touch me so gental like I was gonna break. Well remember those days with a smile on your face. I know I let you go once but I promise I wont again, please give me another chance and just set her free. I messed up and I regret what I did, but I love you now don't your forget. So if you wont give me another chance, I guess ill let you go, but dont you forget what my love has showed!!

The Lost Words

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know ..

Crying Over You ...

you came into my life again, leaving more footprings in my heart. while i was trying to hold on tight you let go without a fright. not even saying goodbye as if you didnt want to, but letting go like you always wanted. you treated me as if i was nothing, always putting me down, making me feel worthless.

And all i did was let you know how i felt truly and deeply. and how i really didnt want you to go. but why is it so hard to let you go knowing how you treated me? why do i keep coming back for more? things will never work out so why do i wnat to try to make it? even though were over, im wanting you back, why? you hurt me in so many ways i just cant say, you let me down to much days! yet im the one to blame.

I want to let you go, but you left me with all our memories that keep hurting me so deep inside. im deleting your number off my phone, im letting you go, im done playing the blame game, AND IM DONE CRYING OVER YOU!!

I love you more than anyone

I've fallen in love with you and I'll never let you go. I love you more than anyone, I just had to let you know. And if you ever wonder why, I don't know what I'll say, but I'll never stop loving you, each and every day ...

I miss what I can't have

I will always miss those beautiful brown eyes, your soft, sweet voice, and the way you called me baby, you mean so much to me you will never know.

I miss the times when you came to my house to watch movies and knowing that never again will I watch a movie with you holding me close brakes me heart and never again will I feel your touch, never again will I get to hear those words I love you out of your mouth at least not directed to me.

Never again will I see that smile that made me whole day better, anytime I was on the phone with you I was smiling, just knowing that I would see you or talk to you made everything better.

I know you weren't like the rest of the girls I knew, I knew you were sweet, funny and that you would love me no matter what, I knew your love was true, and I miss that love that you had for me i am sorry I had to fu*k it all up! I'm gonna miss the way you smell and I know that never again will I have you to hold and never again will you be mine...

I never learned that game

i don't know how to do this; yet i know how to do it better than anyone else. who am i kidding I've been doing it for almost many years. Stealing you away from anything that isn't me. making you believe that i am and have always been the one.

You see it, you know it, yet still you wont believe it. i have always been there for you. yet so has every other girl. but I've been here the longest. I've put in my time. I've dealt with the ups and the downs. stood by you through thick and thin. and amazingly you've done the same for me. you laid next to me and watched me cry, told me everything would be okay.

Amazingly you were a million times exactly what i needed. and yet when i needed you the most you turned your back. your newest flavor of the week took prize over me. surprisingly i knew how to take it and all the while was shocked when it happened.

I wish for someone or something different to walk into my life every day.. and yet right when that wish is made i see your face. you're something i cant let go of.. or maybe i don't know how to let go of. you're my everything and my nothing. you're everything i wished for and absolutely nothing i wanted.

you make me cry internally... no one has ever been able to do that. so congratulations. you make me wish i was better make me wish i had her qualities, even though i don't know what she has over me. In fact i know she has nothing over me. but there's nothing I'm better at than stealing you away and yet i wish there was nothing i was better at than keeping you interested. but apparently i never learned that game.