I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know ..
i don't know how to do this; yet i know how to do it better than anyone else. who am i kidding I've been doing it for almost many years. Stealing you away from anything that isn't me. making you believe that i am and have always been the one.
You see it, you know it, yet still you wont believe it. i have always been there for you. yet so has every other girl. but I've been here the longest. I've put in my time. I've dealt with the ups and the downs. stood by you through thick and thin. and amazingly you've done the same for me. you laid next to me and watched me cry, told me everything would be okay.
Amazingly you were a million times exactly what i needed. and yet when i needed you the most you turned your back. your newest flavor of the week took prize over me. surprisingly i knew how to take it and all the while was shocked when it happened.
I wish for someone or something different to walk into my life every day.. and yet right when that wish is made i see your face. you're something i cant let go of.. or maybe i don't know how to let go of. you're my everything and my nothing. you're everything i wished for and absolutely nothing i wanted.
you make me cry internally... no one has ever been able to do that. so congratulations. you make me wish i was better make me wish i had her qualities, even though i don't know what she has over me. In fact i know she has nothing over me. but there's nothing I'm better at than stealing you away and yet i wish there was nothing i was better at than keeping you interested. but apparently i never learned that game.
It hurts to breathe because every breath I take proves I can't live without you.
To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful.A life with love will have some thorns, but a life without love will have no roses.Reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears.The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have.Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.The stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most, won't hurt you again.
The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.Love is unconditional, relationships are not.For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, It might have been.
i dream about you and i lost my breath, i saw you and i lost my nerve.
i gave you my heart and i lost my hope, i gave you my love and i almost lost my life. ~ I Lost Everything ~
Pieces of my heart hold hurt in their soul and cry out any life left in them in its tears.
Silent and empty moments filled with broken promises ; is where loneliness lives with me.
Numb and cold memories have become the meaning to my love and meaningless to my reality.
When someone hurts you its hard to let go of the pain.....I know and see you struggle with anger and pain
What we fail to see is that the pain is often our own dreams crashing to the ground and they are the very things that hurt us.
I wish you happiness and I love you. My love for you is childlike, innocent and pure and came out of the blue and hung just on a feeling but it was the strongest feeling I ever felt. I surrender my dreams because they may hurt you and I would rather bear the hurt than pull at you at the very time you are falling in love. I feel tears and sorrow deeply inside and nobody will see it or can calm it. Its part of me now this familiar sadness and hollow and hopelessness. The very sadness I had been running from.
Nobody ever fought for me and I don't expect anyone ever will. But, knowing you love someone and that you don't feel the same for me....I know how the story ends. I've known for some time but I wanted to hang on a little longer. I'm sorry only that I met you as a married man and not when I was free. The fault is all mine and my sadness too. But in my dreams, which were unrestrained, I had a happy life with you and you were good to me...and that is my sadness; knowing.
I want to run and scream and cry but everything feels bound up tightly inside; only veins and muscles twitch and salty sleepless tears form and slowly fall. Today I have no dreams, no true home ...only tears and my only fear is that they will remain forever. Whatever God has now chosen for me, I am just now a feather in the wind and feel unworthy of love. The trailing whisps of dreams are not enough to bear the weight of my sorrow.
When my tears dry, I hope you know I still care and I will not abandon you if you need a friend or a shoulder to lean on. You are still precious and you are in my heart.
Because.... I know you didn't mean to make me cry.
The first time I laid my eyes on you I knew, that we'd spend this life side by side I still feel the same though you are so far away I swear that you'll always be mine, forever love I promise you someday we'll be together forever love, I wont give up no matter what I'll be waiting for you forever love.Minutes and hours and years may go by but my heart knows nothing of time so dont cry just keep me right there in your dreams and hold onto these words of mine.
Forever love I promise you someday we'll be together forever love I wont give up no matter what I'll be waiting for you forever love is the road to our destiny nothing can change what is meant to be forever love no I wont give up no matter what I'll be waiting for you forever.
All i seem to think about is you, I sit here and try not to cry. Everyone is asking me why, why am I so dam depressed. I say it's nothing, but they know it's something. You are the reason!!! I love you so much, but it hurts so bad, to know that I can't have your tender touch.
My days n nights are so lonely, I think I might be going crazy. Your love is the only thing I need in this world, and without you I'm not whole.
I hate seeing you and not being able to be with you, I hate to see you laugh, cuz I know I am hurting so deep inside. Why should you be happy when I can't even laugh without you popping in my mind. My laugh turns to tears......... Why can't I get over you?
I need you in my life, my world seems so blue. Nothing makes me happy anymore. You took your love away, and I fell apart! but it seems like you don't even care! So why sould I?
I wish I could just forget about you, I hurt you so now I guess you have to hurt me.
Many times I have loved and lost, for so long my heart lay shattered and broken. I have given up on life and pieces of my heart scattered, have left it bleeding, numbing with pain.
Then you came along, patiently you picked them up, unceasingly healing it back with the warmth of your love. Slowly my heart began to feel again, like a flower awakening to the warmth of the sun. Bringing life and it's splendor back in existence into my world.
Yet with all the love you showered, the care you've lavished, reluctance still lurks in my heart and mind. You've given me everything and asked for nothing. Healed my heart, given me hope and selflessly asked that I let you love me in return. That was all you've ever asked from me, yet even that I didn't give.
I cannot blame you, everyone and everything has it's limit... even love... It's true that you never know what you have until you've lost it...
It's been 8 years since I left you and never a day pass that I don't think of you. It maybe late, maybe you've found someone who loves you and you love in return. Maybe you have now the kids you've always wanted and would have given up because for me. Maybe you're now living the life that you've always wanted, a loving wife, bunch of kids, homecooked dinners and picnics on sundays.
Know that I'm happy for you, and that the love and care you've shown and given me was never a waste. It maybe a little late, but winter gave way to spring and I have you to thank for that.
Maybe we weren't meant to be together in this lifetime, maybe you were meant just to heal my heart so that it'll know your love.
In the next lifetime when we meet, my heart will know you and remember your love. And by then my true love, I will never let you go....
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